HEALING JOURNEY: PASS OR FAIL? October 11-24, 2009:
JOURNAL - HEALING JOURNEY: PASS OR FAIL?
October 11-24, 2009: Two weeks of incredible healing journey experience- invited by Aunt Swiftley Gonzalez, to her home in Millerville, TN. I was totally mesmerized by Octoberfest of vibrant autumn colors. Enjoyed a loving family southern hospitality and sightseeing adventure. I came home stronger, blessed, determined to recover, rejuvenate my energy to positive and fight to survive.
Two days after returning home, I had to do routine PET Scan again. The result of that scan was very grim. Residual of lymph nodes were seen on my neck. Too tiny to be biopsied, I have to wait for 5 to 6 months for another scan. This was not an easy wait. What if ….? I was counting worries instead of counting blessings. Closer to God when in doubts?. YES, God is control. I can’t ask for better and devoted pray warriors who persistently never gave up.
A makeshift altar, a sacred place I created in my room is where I meditate, and talk to my Shepherd and receive His daily gifts to me. It connects me to my Creator, the Great Physician, Sovereign Lord, to give me strength and courage. It is my refuge.
April 9, 2010: My third CT SCAN. When I told Mark, the technician, that I am a Christian, he was impressed to pray for me. We shared our strong faith and trust in God. It gave me peace and the assurance that God was merciful and loving.
April 14, 2010: Time for routine follow up with my health provider. Fear of the unknown crept to my mind again. I was freaking out, anxious over the result. Will it be—Pass or Fail? The NP approached me with twinkling eyes and smile on her face. She gave me a hug and said “Julie, everything is all right”. Sweet. Deep sigh of relief, tears of joy.
Overwhelmed with happiness, I asked if she would kneel down with me to thank God. She did not take me seriously but the staff were clapping and congratulating. I texted my daughter immediately and she texted me back “I told you so, Mom!” What did she mean? She had Faith! More tears…we are both survivors. We fought together. Thank you, Charlene.
April 16,2010: My birthday, the best Birthday gift — the interpretion of Radiologist: “WHOLE BODY CT PET SCANNING IS NORMAL AT THIS TIME. THERE iS NO PATHOLOGIC METABOLIC ACTIVITY”. Privately, approaching God on my altar, I celebrated my birthday and healing, with our Sovereign Lord with His host of angels. My imagination took me to a birthday party and dancing with Jesus, looking into His face and whisper in His ear, “THANK YOU son of God. for healing me, physically and spiritually.” As the song says, “The voices of million angels cannot describe my GRATITUDE, for what God has done for me. To GOD BE THE GLORY!!. Amen
The future? I surrender all to God. I will strive to be “today’’ person and not trap by ‘yesterday’. Like the grass by the seaside, blasted by the strong storm,”willing to bend but reluctant to break”. Get my life back and enjoy what God has to offer. Move on to new chapter.
My sincerest GRATITUDE to ALL, my sweet friends, loving family, church family, Sunrise Christian preschool teachers and my cute students, OAA Kindergartens and First Grades and all the teachers, whoever, wherever you are, saints, for your prayers, encouragement and thoughts. You are my rock. Thanks for Kris Carr, my inspiration. By reading her book “Crazy, Sexy Cancer Survivor” and watching her inspiring movie, taught me to believe that I am a Survivor from day one.
Our collective faith prevail. Thank you doctors, nurses and medical staff for your care. Because of you ALL and our Mighty God, I survived. The result is “PASS” with highest honor. The honor belong to God.
With love and hug,
Julie Gibbs
